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Author: Laura Stephenson

Make the most of every day ….

Make the most of every day ….

So what’s happening in my world at the moment… as ever it’s a whole mixture of things from stresses at work to fun with the girls! Life often brings highs and lows and in the middle of it all cancer really doesn’t care if you are finding life easy or hard. On reflection I have decided to find that joy in the midst of it all, whilst understanding that you don’t always have to be smiling. At the moment I…

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What’s in a mixed bag ……….

What’s in a mixed bag ……….

A mixed bag • so I finally have the exact measurements of each tumour in my currently imperfect body • A mixed bag could mean so many things, a mixed bag of opinions, a mixed bag of sports results or a mixed bag of sweets. • it can mean different things to different people and ultimately depends on how you view it • We have a choice on how we view things • and boy is it easy to view…

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At the top of the roller coaster ………

At the top of the roller coaster ………

My results will be official tomorrow and barring my oncologist totally missing something on Monday everything looks to be stable and not growing! • this to me is great news and the power of my God • 🙏🏻 Sometimes it is overwhelming being on this rollercoaster and I don’t think it ever just applies to cancer • we all have situations we have had or are going through where our emotions, thoughts & paths feel like a rollercoaster • when we…

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How to fight the battle …..

How to fight the battle …..

Today is results day • would love to say that even on these days I am filled with positivity, peace and understanding but that is not the case because I am human; and regardless of your faith or relationships we are created to feel fear and worry • but it is on these days that I realise just how big this mountain is that I need to move • thankfully I don’t have to do this on my own (now…

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Intimacy …..

Intimacy …..

Over the last few days God has been speaking to me about intimacy with Jesus, deliverance and breakthrough. I really want to share what I hope is an encouraging post this morning. This battle I am in has been the most draining, toughest and tested my mental capacity no end! It is the biggest one I will ever fight. But fight I will because it is going to be the battle that brings with it the biggest rainbow. I will…

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What to say ………..

What to say ………..

Sometimes in this walk I hear or am told things that pile on the fear factor for me • people don’t know what to say when you tell them the medical facts • I do understand that it’s hard on others but I have decided that I need to start every conversation with people by explaining about my faith • about my God that has given healing freely & that I do not have fear • I do not intend…

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Waiting and fear ……..

Waiting and fear ……..

When life chucks fear and negativity at you; what can you do?! • In your own strength there is nothing you can do. I have struggled with that fear and negativity yesterday but once again have decided to look at that fear in the face and for what it is • it is an attack from the enemy in this battle that I am fighting • since I have not been given a spirit of fear from God I must…

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Where’s my head at ……….

Where’s my head at ……….

So today was exactly what I thought it was going to be and kind of hoped it wouldn’t be •I saw my consultant and got some bad news. They think the swelling I have had recently under a lymph node could show that there has been a negative change in my circumstances • my blood cancer marker is also rising and is now above that from when I was diagnosed • On a day like today your head space is…

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Its the people around you ….

Its the people around you ….

• yesterday was a draining day; I had a swelling in my neck around a lymph node. I know this lymph node is probably infected but I wanted to make sure my picc line hadn’t moved so in I went to the hospital • I really dislike hospitals as many of us do • I feel like they are filled with doom & a sense of hopelessness (not the combination you want when you are apprehensive or fearful) • however…

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The way forward ……

The way forward ……

Today was chemo day. As always I was sat with someone who has the same diagnosis as me.Once again I believe this is no coincidence. While I am in this place I am being able to speak about my faith & what I believe is the best way forward in all of this. How our bodies often mirror what our mind is saying. How we tackle this thing inside us that doesn’t belong. How we look it in the eye…

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