Today was a mixed day of emotion, I had a consultant appointment to talk about things. I think sometimes we get a bit used to hearing the same things or complacent in our walk with the Lord. It’s not a bad thing, but sometimes it makes us lose sight of what we are doing or the battle we are fighting.
Today I was reminded that I am in a storm, that this is a battle & that to come out the other side I must press into HIS presence and word more than ever!
Without dwelling too much on what hot said or the way it made me feel, I will just give you all an update. Basically my cancer blood marker, which shows if it is about to spread further or there will be changes to what it is doing (ie not continuing to shrink or responding), is increasing. There are other factors that could be nothing that would make this increase but it is also one for the doctors to be concerned about if you have cancer.
It really gave me a sucker punch feeling in my stomach and left me feeling uncertain. But even in the midst of that I kept up the mantra in my head, ‘HEALING is mine’.
Then as always GOD steps in and reminds me that HE has the power in this and I don’t need to have that feeling in my stomach.
I got back to work from the meeting, feeling rubbish and a lady came into our office. Our door isn’t often left open but she asked after a colleague. The colleague had gone out, so I offered my help, told her who I was and she told me who she was. She looked me in the eye, and said “oh you are Laura”, she then proceeded to tell me that “it is all in His hands and it is all in His timing”.
I have never met this lady before and I certainly didn’t ask for her thoughts on my faith but God knew in that moment that I need affirmation and He delivered.
I really felt today that God wants me to remember, my healing, will happen in His timing.
He gave me a picture today, that someone gave to me a while ago but was raised in my mind this afternoon.
When you fly, before you rise above the clouds the weather around you can be bleak, dull & stormy. But once above those clouds the sun can be bright, illuminating and shining.
I am in a storm that looks bleak to those around me, it’s turbulent and sometimes it’s tough to be there.
However even though I haven’t seen my sun risen on this miracle yet: IT WILL. The time is coming when I will see the glorious light of the sun shining on this storm and it will be total healing because that is what HE promises!
Thank you for standing with me and for continued prayers. It means so much to me! You are all amazing! 🙏🏻💙👍🏻